Thursday, June 22, 2006

Flee

And we stare out into the velvety darkness, wrapped in our own thoughts, miles away yet so acutely away of each other's closeness and we continue with our air of nonchalance. Pretending the tension didn't exist between the two of us; the tension that made the air cackle with electricity. Yet we shall pretend and not acknowledge this electricity, the very electricity that makes the hair at the back of our necks stand and sends chills up our spines.

And my eyes dart sideways, assessing your every move. Your arm brushes against my own and my skin drinks in your warmth as I stare ahead pretending not to notice. The effect you have on me is dizzying.

"Shut up heart."

A blush creeps up my neck, staining my cheeks the telltale red and I twist away, hoping, praying you don’t notice. The stars grin down at us, as though sharing a private joke and suddenly I am consumed with the most irrational sense of irritation that the stars were so free, so unconsumed by simple human emotions, untouched by all this confusion.

Shaking my head free of these thoughts, I turn away from you. You make to stop me, yet the glint in my usually lackadaisical eyes seemed to stop you.

"Don't go." You whisper. I pretend not to hear. Blinking away burning tears I walk away; from the one thing that would have made me happier. Slow steps speed up before I break into a run, trying to hide the tears now freely streaming down my cheeks. My hair whips against my cheeks as I finally reach the door. I glance back. One last look, committing your face to memory.

Those eyes which would forevermore haunt me. Your slumped form as you watched me leave helplessly. The way your lips were parted to say words I would never hear. And then I slammed it behind me.

Sometimes, it's just easier to run away.

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Let's flee

6:39 AM